Sunday, July 31, 2011

From If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

"Well, now
If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
Little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you

If you think it long and mad the wind of banners that passes through my life
And you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots
Remember
That on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms
And my roots will set off to seek another land" **



**I wish I'd gotten a better translation.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

I will..

1. Get a Phd and teach! 
2. Have 500 published credits by the time I'm 25.
3. Live on all five continents  by the time I am 35.
4. Write A book. Maybe the only book I ever write, but write it. Before I say Bye Bye.
At the moment, all seem so daunting that I decided to post them publicly so I cannot back out.
I'm also tired of not doing things out of fear. Fear cripples me, and I am always second guessing and not trusting myself to do things. And I don't just mean work. I mean life in general.
It affects everything- my work, my personal relationships and I turn into this whiney, clingy thing. The one thing that I used to be proud of was my determination and even that wavered last year. However, the really good thing that came out of it is that I  finally feel like I am enough. I don't need to do things to prove a point.
5. Travel travel travel. Need taka :(
6.  Eventually, be a journalist on the lines of Nick Kristof. Have real impact and try and write about international issues and issues that plague India, specifically. 
7. Have my own travel show about cultures

Bhakk!

I had a very very crappy start to the day
I thought of this phrase today : Idle worship . Its meaning would be useless exalting of an ordinary human being to the status of the extraordinary.
And then I found a Facebook game with the same name.
Love is just a four letter word etcetera.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

:(

I woke up thinking of this person and this and this person today and I suddenly had the urge to sit and drink endless cups of coffee with you and giggle about inane things again.


Ah well, October isn't far away and on my wishlist is many many kababs and lots of things to do during the pujo and a trip to Ladakh.



Sunday, July 17, 2011

Please god, please let these two months be over so I can have my life back?

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Funny? Not so funny?

Maybe I should stop grinning like a maniac! I woke up this morning to find that one of my chief sources of traffic is I teeth whitening dot com. In other news, I did not fail my exams. I have done surprisingly well. Here's hoping that the dissertation goes well too.

It's brilliant weather in London and I have been roaming the streets and getting to know the place more than I have in the last few months. I could get used to living here I suppose, but probably not forever. There are so many countries and continents I want to live in. I hope I get to live on all five continents in my life and travel and properly see as many places as I can.