Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Ta-da!

So I'm possibly moving to Delhi in June and am starting a new job. It's too early to actually write anything about it but I definitely will, in time. All I can say is that I'm super excited about it and am now focussing on finishing some writing and having fun. I've travelled a fair bit this year, first to the Sundarbans with my friends and then to China. A trip to Delhi is in the offing as is another trip. Not that I'm complaining at all. After school ended, I'd dreamt of a gap year and although this hasn't been a gap year, in some ways it definitely felt like one. I was completely burnt out from exhaustion and being unhappy with the way a lot of things in my life were. The last year or so has certainly helped me gain perspective and I view things very differently now than when I began. This next trip will possibly be my last holiday in at least a year, so might as well make the most of it. I'm going to go visit my sister Raka and that is always lovely.

Personally, I have stopped blaming myself for something that went horribly wrong and I feel like I've really grown up. Earlier I'd spend days scrutinising every little detail, trying to understand what it could have been. I know that retrospectively I will understand what the reason is, however excruciating it is now.