Low Point.

What I have been doing for the past three weeks :

1. Regular dental appointments

The Dental appointments take up most  of my mornings-provided I do wake up in the morning.

2. A Ton of Paperwork

A Visa Application, enough said.

3. Library clearances.

4. Going to the Bank and making sure my checks go to the right places.

5. Editing a rather large report on Child Rights and The Mainstream print  Media- I didn't write it, only edited it.

I've also gotten completely blocked up and cannot write anything. What is worse is, I haven't even bothered to pitch/ submit any fiction or non-fiction. Ideally, I should be preparing for my course in Social Anthropology ( slated to begin in September) and before that, read up for my Creative Writing Course in August. This isn't supposed to be happening! I've turned into a lazy lump that swims around the bowl, eats and sleeps! :(

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I've tried to analyse why I can't seem to be focusing now and it's probably because I'm worried about a ton of things- what will moving out feel like? Will I be able to achieve what I want to? Will I be able to do things on my own terms? The questions are neverending and the answers equally ambiguous. I suppose the best thing to do right now is to shut the head, stop overanalysing and go with the flow.

Comments

Sharad said…
I know our situations aren't the same, but living by yourself isn't so bad. Just remember to throw yourself into your work! Oh, and good luck with your new university.
Reeti said…
Thanks so much Sharad. I'll keep tabs on your t-shirt! :)
Magically Bored said…
Oh, you'll be fine. It's going to be such fun for you! We'll miss you, though. <3
Magically Bored said…
Also, love the new blog look. :-)s
Aradhana said…
I have been going through a similar down for sometime and finally starting to emerge out of it- know how u feel :) you'll be great- waiting to speak to you soon - with some chai of course :)
Reeti said…
@ melmen : I can't wait to see you! come back soon!!! I miss you :(